it would be lovely if u had the to balls to fucking text me nd show ur face nd stop being such a pussy cuz u know u did wrong and thats y u havent dared to HMU.. ur an idiot if u seriously think i havent caught on to the news! -.-….u seriously have disappointed me big time cuz u had proved me wrong but i guess i get to prove u wrong as well when u have the balls 2 talk 2 me again..im sure u clearly understud when i looked u str8 in ur face as u were walking with her holding hands and the funny thing is u know u did wrong cuz u immediately dropped her hand and looked away cuz ur a pussy cant even stand up 4 urself dumb nigga! -.- smh!
i have a lot going on in my head that i have no idea what to do think about next “/ its kinda stressing me out..this week was spirit week at school ive had so much issues i lost my spirit wasnt in the mood for anything i wanna do super hero vs. villain day which is 2mm now let me tell u EVERYTHING that is going on 2mm..
-was suppose to do essay didnt do
- super hero day
now thats only 2mm all of this is gonna happen s fast im not even gonna notice it. Ive been so sleepy and tired that its like ridiculous i slept an hour and a half today when i got home from school its 9 now and im sleepy as hell once again like wth!? then i have you in mind idk whats going on in ur head like ur leading me nd im kinda following which i shouldn’t b doing and i haven’t been but now its like you have been making me feel so good and stuff its like i haven’t had this feeling in a while and i wanna maybe go to the next level with u but idk idk whats going on so thats on hold lol ;)….then im in the search of a new job A.S.A.P i need money cuz im not getting paid shit -.- smh! then my mom has been talking about going to colombia over the winter break so much that now i kinda wanna go but now she cant find a ticket for herlself so now i dont think were going -.-…then we went to get my license stuff today i need 2 do a 4 hour stupid test im really not looking foward to and i still need to learn the stupid little stuff like fuck i should of done tis when it urned 15 but i never did GGGGRRR… mmmm i think thats it well these are the major things then the other are w.e fuck it lol :)
for virtual school lesson 17 was to pick a situation and either be a counselor a friend or a person in the actual situation so i picked someone and wrote to them :)
Although we only have a few months of knowing each other I feel like I know so much about you I can read you pretty much from when something is wrong to when something awesome has happened. Since the moment we met I knew about you girlfriend, you guys as a matter a fact made 2 years on the second month of us knowing each other. You guys seemed fine to me but as I got to know you I’ve noticed certain things in which I’m sure you don’t realize but they call it an abusive relationship. I know your thinking I’m crazy for actually saying this but I’m doing it because I care for you and you mean a lot to me.
You and her are very different she has gone through way more than you have so she is more experienced in certain things and is more conscious of what she is getting herself into. What do I mean by this? She has you raped around her finger and you don’t realize it. Being in an abusive relationship doesn’t necessarily mean that she is hitting you, in which thank god it hasn’t gotten into that yet. You see the way she manipulates you into doing whatever she wants and you having to agree and deal with everything she says and does is abuse, you’re not being able to be yourself, she’s making you be someone you’re not. Every day I notice more and more how you justify her to be happy and make yourself think nothing is wrong in other words you’re in denial of what she is making you do. It’s also the fact that you’re so in love with her that you don’t seem to see anything is wrong, you know what they say love is blind.
As your friend it hurts me to see you go through this just because I hate the fact you’re not able to hang out with any friends that are girls, just for the simple fact that their girls. I hate the fact you have to lie to her when we hang out or just for you to be able to text me or call me you have to make sure she isn’t around, and seriously this whole having me under a guy’s name is ridiculous. I seriously think you should just end this before it gets to another level and by the looks of it this is going from bad to worse. I mean remember what happened last week when we were hearing about the rumors and her talking the way she did about you? This needs to stop you ether need to sit her down and talk and get serious and let her know how you really feel or just break it off. Although I know its going to hurt you but it will be the best for you. I mean you know I will always be here for you and you know you can talk to me whenever you want , I also suggest talking to your best friend I mean I know how you boys are with the fact of not being able to talk to girls the same way you would to a guy.
I honestly hope you take my advice in dealing with this relationship and that everything turns out for the best and that everyone is happy. I’m pretty sure you realize everything I have said and I’m sure you will make the right choice. You know I’m willing to do whatever is in my hands to help you with this situation. You know I miss talking to you like we use to before, but I understand that you don’t want to upset her but you need to have personality and put up your walls as well. I hope your understand that this is for the best of both you guys and that in the long run you don’t regret making the wrong choice. Can you imagine if this is how it is now that you guys are in high-school? Now imagine it when you guys are married you will not be able to do anything at all with your life you won’t be happy with your life.
ok im dead tired i had a long night last night didn’t go to sleep till 2 in the morning and i woke up none stop i woke up at 5:30 for school with a sinus headache from crying my face was swollen yea i need my ed now its been a long as day i even worked and did homework i have a feeling 2mm is gonna b another long day -.- i dont wanna go 2 3rd or 5th period FML! UGH!!! im already dreading it and i haven’t even gone to sleep lol….
on the good side my bestfriend is talking to me again =D i love him =)… im still waiting for the dork to text me will see if he does or not he said he would will see -.-….
10 Days Crapp (:
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now. Day Two: Nine things about yourself. Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart. Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot. Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done. Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever) Day Seven: Four turn offs. Day Eight: Three turn ons. Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now. Day Ten: One confession
i get this unexpected text and as im talking to this person about what i thought i had nothing to do with turns out everything was on me i dont understand why u do this i dont understand wtf ur issue is i thought u were suppose to b my best friend threw thick and thin i thought u were suppose to b the one to make me realize that i can still have faith in ppl and still have a true best friend after everything that happened, i seriously at this point cant imagine my life with out u you mean the world to me ur my ride or die buddy but now u tell ppl i dont care about u when u know dam well how much i care about u….i have tears running down my face as i just sent u a 10 page text and now writing this while i wait for ur reply i have a feeling this is gonna go bad…. :””(
instead of making me feel better its just like slap in the freaking face… you know when that person that means so much to u is upset and u clearly cant help but care and wonder whats wrong with them so u try to help and give them ur all?? well u expect the same back right??? but u never get shit in return its like im always there 4 ppl but when karen is feeling like shit no one is there nd if their there all they can say is ok,idk,uummm,sorry,idk what to say one word text messages when i was up till w.e time for everyone no matter who u were im always there im always caring for every one and its like wtf happens when i feel like shit wtf happens when i have no one to talk to wtf happens to how i feel huh?
Idk how 2 describe what I’m feeling right now I think I’m starting 2 like u nd I’m not liking it cuz that means I’m letting my guard down nd its not good that’s when I get hurt, then I have these flashbacks of the recent times nd I see him but now I see u my heart wants 2 b with him but my head is starting 2 think of u making my heart change positions!, what’s going on with me idk I’m so confused nd lost